piscinedesreves

2011-06-10T11:17:00.000+08:00

Syrup poached in the dead middle of the night.

Syrup poached in the dead middle of the night.

~~Syrup poached in the dead middle of the night.~~

Syrup poached in the dead middle of the night.

2010-06-23T01:04:00.000+08:00

Well, a year.

2010-06-11T14:39:00.000+08:00

Upon the Mirror million corpses fall,
souls of bitterness filled the halls.
Guards and ghost troops dread in hell,
deadly ambiance, putrid smell.
No day, no night, not even twilight;
Ghost King laughs as hell resides.
Tsing-guam, young medium behold,
traverse the Underworld alone.

2010-05-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

Commercial happyness, I guess, is still popular.

2010-05-09T22:44:00.001+08:00

I said, Hello Hurricane.

2010-05-09T22:36:00.002+08:00

It was very odd.

The advertisement, the warning,
it said, "Prepare to meet your God."

Such a simplistic statement, assuming we all have our Gods.
What if I don't have one?

2010-05-03T23:28:00.003+08:00

I suppose, in this society, it is very taboo of me to say this. But I really admire Ms Toh. I'm jealous, even. In a good way.

She was so very strong, so very brave.

My friend tells me there had been signs before, snippets and glances into her inner troubled heart, just that no one saw them, no one picked them out. Of course no one did. That's the way it works.

This condition, it makes you refuse your pills; it makes you want to go on this way; it makes you enjoy the destruction.

This condition, it makes you happy to be sad.

2010-04-28T22:54:00.002+08:00

I suppose I'm allowed a life outside of you.
Is that not a human right?
Or am I only human when you allow me to?

2010-04-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

We all become vampires sometimes.

Don't make vampire me bite mortal, pitiful, little you.
Don't make me angry. You won't like it when I'm angry.

I burn everything in my way.

2010-04-16T17:33:00.001+08:00

Little Miss Different had a friend named Fire,
pronounced as Fear.

2010-04-14T13:21:00.001+08:00

I really loved that place.
It's so relaxing.
I can do anything.
I mean it, anything.

And all this while the calming chant in my head says,
"Don't worry, it isn't real."

I want to return there,
spend time there,
be there,
live there.

I'll never die there.

2010-04-12T01:21:00.000+08:00

Malaysia has nice grey skies.

2010-04-09T22:45:00.001+08:00

The perfect place to die a chaotic death.
Just that the drop-off isn't clean enough.

I will return there.

2010-04-06T00:33:00.001+08:00

I dreamed I was dying, as I so often do;
And when I awoke I was sure it was true.
I ran to the window, threw my head to the sky;
And said whoever is up there, please don't let ~~me die~~ them cry.

2010-04-05T22:51:00.001+08:00

Another year, another day;
Another time to be alive.
Another time (soon, I say),
There will still be time to die.

2010-03-27T16:19:00.001+08:00

HAHA. Best.

2010-03-27T15:53:00.001+08:00

You can get high on cyanide.

2010-03-25T00:23:00.002+08:00

They say the third day of the ninth month is the toughest.

Nonsense.
Everyday is as tough as it gets.
And tougher still, tomorrow.

2010-03-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

This has all happened before.
This will all happen again.

"So what? You've been through this.
It's been - what - 4 years? No biggie."

The curse of 23 never dies,
no matter how good you feel that morning.

2010-03-22T19:44:00.001+08:00

Every year I grow, I give myself just another year more.
In two weeks it shall be time again to puzzle over my still-in-being.

In a very strange way, I guess my life depends on the MRT.
Completion in April, too.

Coincidence.
Come on, it's not God again.

2010-03-22T18:13:00.004+08:00

I fought cylons on a Viper
and humans on a Cylon Raider. Twice.
With my eyes open.

How's that for muchness?

2010-03-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

Awesome day, awesome company! :D

2010-03-17T11:19:00.000+08:00

Do you mind?
Stay away from my world.
Or burn in hell.

Choose.

2010-03-16T13:31:00.002+08:00

Midnight's bright lights,
marching into the fight.
Drink me, shrink me;
fill me to sink me.

2010-03-16T13:31:00.000+08:00

This kingdom good riddance good freedom and innocence;
Has brought this world all clean down.
"And contrariwise, what it is, it wouldn't be;
And what it wouldn't be, it would -
You see?"

Sometimes the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain.
And even though she is dreaming, she knows.
And even though she is dreaming, she's unlocked the meaning.

2010-03-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

Results aren't everything.
Why won't anybody believe me when I say I'm not jumping because of results?

I can jump for other reasons, can't I?
Or, I can jump for no reason at all.

2010-03-11T21:05:00.001+08:00

I like how it feels when I feel I wanna jump.

2010-03-11T17:35:00.003+08:00

Today I will
Water a fake plant
Write a sad ending
to the story with no beginning
Walk with my feet inwards
backwards
Have tea
and
Plan my trip to the island
off the coast of Nowhere.

2010-03-10T00:48:00.001+08:00

"This movie is stupid. It doesn't have an ending!"

It does.
It just isn't happy, like you'd expect it to be.

It doesn't have to.

2010-03-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

It seems to be a common thread running through all Gods, or God-like concepts. They are hated. Or loved. Nothing in between. They just sashay into the Universe and run our days. Randomly favour a few and raise them high. The rest you can destroy. No prizes for guessing who hates You.

We're all just Sims playing more Sims.
Build the houses. Create the people.
Turn on "Free Will". Turn off "Free Will".
Make their choices. Make them think it's their own choices.
Madison goes to school. I like her; she gets an "A".
Molly goes to school. I don't know why, but I'd like to see her get a Fail.
Create more people. Screw up their days.
Laugh at them. (This is most important.)

11.11pm. Make a wish.
"When I become a God, I'll just kill myself all over again."

2010-03-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

According to Her Fearful Symmetry, Elspeth dies this way. A fullness in the throat, cumulative and choking. That would be just amazing, if it weren't for the fact that I feel that right now.

On a brighter side, there were people who made my day. So often, there are those who make your day and then there are those who make their own day by breaking yours.

You shout "Burn, motherfucker, burn!"
And then you run.

It's simple, really.

2010-03-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

Apparently, God thinks I don't know my ABCs well enough.

2010-03-05T11:33:00.000+08:00

"This is all a dream. It'll all be over when I wake up."
But they won't fucking let me awake.

2010-03-04T23:49:00.001+08:00

I don't think it will make a difference anymore.

2010-03-04T20:43:00.000+08:00

I need to watch Alice in Wonderland alone, I think.

2010-03-04T20:42:00.002+08:00

GOD the two of them make me sick.

2010-03-04T15:00:00.001+08:00

OMG.

Tokio Hotel + Kerli + Alice in Wonderland

= *jumps up and down in excitement*

2010-03-02T18:32:00.000+08:00

Society has ingrained in me
to build my world, properly.

"Well be sure to build your house
brick by boring brick,
or the wolves gonna blow it down."

"Well go get your shovel,
And we'll dig a deep hole.
To bury the castle, bury the castle."

"If it's not real:
You can't hold it in your hand;
You can't feel it with your heart-
Then I won't believe it."

"Well you built up a world of magic,
Because your real life is tragic."

But guess what?
I can see it with my eyes,
And even in the dark.
So that's where I want to be.

Be, be, be, be.

This is why I won't believe in me, at times.

2010-03-02T18:25:00.001+08:00

Not every brainwave is God-given.

2010-03-02T00:14:00.001+08:00

Why do I do this to myself?!

2010-03-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

"I thought you were going to kill yourself?"
"Why are you still here?"
"Go on, do it."
"I knew you wouldn't have the guts." *smirk*

When I look at other people, I feel green.
Envy, and nausea.
Pity, sympathy (for me).

"I wish we had taken a photo like that."
"Didn't we?"
"Did you not feel that too?"
I remember, and yet I don't.

Space and time is trivial,
so I can't contradict myself.
(And this belief, so strong belief,
so firm belief, so stubborn belief,
does not rise, does not work,
does not hope, but only yields
in this place.)
And yet I shall.

Alice, Alice, Alice, Alice, Alice.

2010-03-01T19:44:00.001+08:00

Being healthy is just dying at the slowest rate possible.

2010-02-26T22:16:00.001+08:00

Fireside Hot Chocolate.

2010-02-22T18:23:00.000+08:00

"There's probably no God.
Now stop worrying and enjoy your life."

2010-02-22T18:22:00.000+08:00

"You can't spell Darwin without WIN."
- Darsh Daimontal

WIN.

2010-02-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

Just smoke my cigarette and hush.

2010-02-15T13:19:00.001+08:00

It's so convenient, isn't it.
"It is not true, it is just the work of Satan and his demons."

2010-02-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

When all three won't listen,
I know not what to do.

I don't want to call Aleina again.

2010-02-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

Working on the very street
I dreamed up for all those fake formal letters written in English examinations.

In my empire state of mind,
The virtual exists, yes it is,
But you also, know,
it's for real in a reel world
all business for show-
just till the big cheese yells CUT.

2010-02-12T13:25:00.001+08:00

And we stand upon the ceiling
and strew black confetti toward the floor.

One day, I'm going to die.

2010-02-07T21:55:00.000+08:00

The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus
"...long ago he made a bet with the devil, Mr Nick..."

See what I mean?!

2010-01-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

I want to scream "Fucking **********!" at the top of my lungs.

2010-01-29T00:22:00.001+08:00

Thou shalt not be a fucktard, or suffer my wrath.

2010-01-24T08:15:00.000+08:00

Dear diary,
Today I saw a microexpression.

^^

2010-01-22T20:05:00.001+08:00

174373
:D

2010-01-14T13:49:00.000+08:00

If it wasn't for all the thrill I get by being mad at you;
I really wouldn't give a damn.

2010-01-14T13:48:00.000+08:00

The difference is that at the end of the day,
we can all become Gods.

2010-01-06T16:07:00.001+08:00

Question: so what if there are no crystals formed?

2010-01-06T16:02:00.001+08:00

Which makes me wonder...
how would the water crystals look like if I taped "Thanks ah" to the glass?

2010-01-06T15:38:00.000+08:00

If you don't know what something is, stop giving people that label.
F.C.

2010-01-06T15:12:00.001+08:00

I'm off to train my pyrokinesis again.
Step on my tail one more fucking time;
I'll feed you my own brand of fire.

2010-01-03T01:30:00.001+08:00

And stop the shit about that already.

2010-01-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

I would love to punch a hole in your head right now;
so fucking pissed I am.

2010-01-03T01:17:00.001+08:00

You do not proclaim people's faiths (or lack thereof) for them. Especially when you and/or others attach a wrongfully negative connotation to the religious status.

It is already annoying and getting on my nerves.
Then you get fucking rude by telling me to take caution of such types.

I could spread word of your faith in my community. Here, it's equal to "Psychopath". We do not touch you with a ten-foot-pole.

I wonder how you would like that.

2009-12-28T14:31:00.001+08:00

Caps Lock Voice or lack thereof.

2009-12-28T13:39:00.000+08:00

Piglet flu.

2009-12-28T00:30:00.001+08:00

This is all for the better, then.

2009-12-28T00:29:00.003+08:00

Friends. Spell it right.

2009-12-28T00:29:00.001+08:00

News.

2009-12-27T18:08:00.005+08:00

Her Fearful Symmetry
by Audrey Niffenegger

"After the slow descriptive pace of most of the book, the ending was WHAM WHAM WHAM: The End. Amazingly, the creepiness of the ending surpassed all the previous creepiness of the book."

YES. My point exactly.
I really didn't mind all the weird Edie/Elspeth, Valentina/Julia, Valentina/Robert, Julia/Martin relationships; if you know me, you know I like weird.

But I can't stand rushed and annoying endings. I like to think, but not too much; I like answers too.

And comparing this with Gaiman's The Graveyard Book isn't helping things at all.

But Martin and Marijke were beautiful.

2009-12-26T23:05:00.001+08:00

And Manson's weird, but Gaga's cool?

2009-12-26T22:58:00.009+08:00

Isn't it odd how people lambast metal/punk music as weird and bad and dangerous and damn it to hell and then decide to rip it off?

Listen to this, then to this/this.

Depeche Mode's song/Manson's cover are years older than Duff's;
I don't think this is some simple coincidence.

Listen to the lyrics of both:
"Reach out and touch faith" vs
"Reach out and touch me".
And they say metal is diabolic.

At least Manson only covered; Duff cheated.
Real music, real music, please.

2009-12-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

One should not watch Angels & Demons on Christmas Day. XD

2009-12-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

The ghosts of trees.

2009-12-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

Is this your idea of a joke?

2009-12-21T09:22:00.001+08:00

And god said, "Thou shalt not wear ankle length corduroy skirts."

2009-12-16T14:07:00.001+08:00

Blessed be her holy hooves.

2009-12-16T13:56:00.000+08:00

Crows in red rum.

2009-12-16T12:41:00.001+08:00

>I|I<

2009-12-15T00:04:00.000+08:00

If an apple a day keeps the doctor away,
would an orchard do away with the medical profession?

2009-12-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

I can't help but get irritated.

2009-12-09T00:20:00.003+08:00

This, coming from you?
How does that work?

2009-12-09T00:20:00.001+08:00

"I closed my eyes so I wouldn't see the darkness."

2009-12-06T18:16:00.000+08:00

I haz a job nao!
Universal Studios Singapore, here I come! XD

2009-12-06T17:53:00.001+08:00

Lie,
why don't you;
without even blinking your eyes.

2009-12-05T23:54:00.001+08:00

Two whole years of work, whirling down the drain.

2009-12-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

Oh fine, if you want to be that way.
Why not?
Nothing's a surprise anymore.
Of course there is more than one vampire in this world.

2009-12-05T01:11:00.001+08:00

You think I look beautiful and that's all that matters.

2009-12-02T10:41:00.000+08:00

I am as light as a slice of bread.

2009-12-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

That's so Twilight.
New Moon's gonna be fun.

Bella Swan, you're one stupid girl.

2009-12-02T00:14:00.002+08:00

Laughing in the cinema when no one else is produces...mixed feelings.
But mostly happy. XD

2009-12-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

"Why a fox? Why not a horse, or a beetle, or a bald eagle? I'm saying this more as, like, existentialism, you know? Who am I? And how can a fox ever be happy without, you'll forgive the expression, a chicken in its teeth?"

2009-11-27T19:14:00.003+08:00

Sims flowing like a smooth river.
Murders and sunsets are gonna be easy from now on.

2009-11-26T23:31:00.001+08:00

My best friend who's not a human being and I went shopping today.

2009-11-26T23:11:00.001+08:00

I'm really happy for you New Moon, and Imma let you finish, but Harry Potter was the best movie of all time.

2009-11-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

And so the answer to life, the universe and everything is to live in a hut of reed matting and to never do anything about it.

2009-11-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

The Lion King is based on Hamlet?!

2009-11-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

Tonight I will be buried, he thinks. But tomorrow I will rise again.
Tomorrow the summer will begin.
Tomorrow my new life will begin.

Tomorrow the summer will begin.

2009-11-19T23:08:00.000+08:00

And then I'm wondering if sub-urbanisation and counter-urbanisation is possible in the City of Dis, and can you build underground tunnels and highways and flyovers to ease traffic congestion, because it must be quite as big as our world right, to accomodate the dead in their afterlife, and how does political and social hierachy work there, and if it's the same as our world then what's the whole point, but still if I'm going there I better learn something about it...

2009-11-19T16:25:00.002+08:00

I have been banished to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis.

Level 1: Low
Level 2: High
Level 3: Moderate
Level 4: High
Level 5: High
Level 6 - The City of Dis: Very High
Level 7: Very High
Level 8: Very High
Level 9: Low
How low can you go?

Sounds good. But you can't beat Chinese Hell, it's got 18 floors.